AWAKENING 

      After discovering the educational concept in my journey of learning I experience total deterioration of my assumption that brought me into an inner process of finding meaning that represent real and permanent transformation which happened in my inner most soul. As I contemplate the pieces of experience in my journey I had viewed myself as a learner who is passive, empty vessel, banking knowledge and receiver. The content and process was focused to the program that is very oppressive, one way communication, spoon feeding methods, subjective - objective which resulted agitation, disconnection to the true meaning of learning, and loss of self-directed learning. Because the teacher as the authoritarian, the expert, reliable source, the depositor of lesson, and narrator or lecturer.
     However, the true learning from the true education concept must experience liberation,open for critical consciousness and awareness that create a space in finding true meaning from their experience which renounces and awaken the critical thinking ability of a learner. Furthermore, the content and process of student and teacher are crucial in developing a true meaning of learning’s. The involvement of two individual must practice a horizontal dialog, reflective process of experiences, collaborative setting, and with mutual respect to each other.
     Nevertheless, if my education never experiences a total transformation I suspected my process of learning never awaken my critical awareness of learning.